Grateful for the lessons

So I've been threatening to start a blog for quite a few years now, and yesterday just so out of the blue, I created one and today I put out my first post. To say I was exited would be an understatement, because what has kept me from blogging is the fact that I find writing so intimidating,yes I do journal, but that's just my thoughts and the pages.

So I sent my first post to a few friends of mine, feeling both nervous and excited....three of them sent really positive feed back, "wow, well done you finally did it" another one wrote "your writing really resonates with me" and another "happy for you my friend."

Then someone I consider a really close to me, was more focused on my typos and how I could improve my writing style...it stung a lot, because for me this was big, it meant putting aside my fears and insecurities and diving right in.

So as expected when I'm feeling a little bruised I picked up the phone and called my bff. She was very sympathetic, and reminded me, that this experience is about me, and maybe he was focused on everything else because he didn't understand my journey to this point. I started going on about how I didn't want to be too aware of myself when I write and how I wouldn't go back to fix anything he had suggested. Like the wise woman she is she says, "Even if you do, it's okay, maybe there's a lesson there for you,no experience is ever wasted."

Immediately after talking to her, what did I do? Yes I went back to my post and  and fixed the typos and  worked on whatever feed back he had given me. In that moment I realised, that deep down I'm still that little girl whose desperate for approval and what others think really matters to me...That's the lesson. Thank  you!!

Deep down I also know that this person cares too deeply for me and his comments were never personal

Thankful for the lessons, for when we know, we can begin the journey to healing.

"All is well in my world"